Don't hang up yet, I'm not done
I'm an expert, I'm the one
The one who was right all along
Better to be laughed at than wrong
I'm an expert just like you
And like you, I'm a genius before my time
Disbelieving, that's the real crime
he/him, mid-twenties, queer, tired, disabled, video games, rats
truly awful when people are insecure about things that are just batshit insane levels of attractive because if they see me staring at them like a hunting dog theyre going to think its because i think theyre ugly and not because i want them
this post is specifically about people with big noses but im currently thinking about how theres so many dudes insecure about having a lot of unmanageable body hair. like there are hordes of people who would descend upon them in a manner not dissimilar to a catastrophic landslide but they simply do not know
Kind of a random hill to die on rn but “You’d eat this thing you hate if you got hungry enough” does not set a reasonable expectation of what “hungry enough” means for people with food problems.
Like, are we talking “stomach grumbling” hungry enough, or “can’t stand up” hungry enough? Cause personally, I can make myself eat a bit of a pork chop if I’m barfy and shaking and can’t see straight anymore, but if it’s down to “black out for three days and wake up angry and confused” or “willingly swallow prosciutto”, I’m having sleep for dinner. And I know this from experience.
People without food problems don’t seem to understand this and it drives me insane. “Hungry enough” is for shit like chewing drywall because the alternative is death or cannibalism.
If I say I can’t eat something, It means I can’t eat it. It Is Not Edible To Me. It’s not even appetizing. It literally does not register as food. You might as well hand me a rubber duck.
And it’s frustrating!! Trust me, I wish I wasn’t like this, too!! This isn’t a choice!! I know it can be rude!! It’s embarassing!! It’s complicated and annoying and irrational!! That doesn’t fix the problem!!
I just wish people didn’t treat this sort of thing as “being picky” or lacking willpower or basic manners or something. I can’t make myself eat certain foods the way you probably couldn’t cut your own fingers off. Does that make sense? It’s not just food. Fuck
Probably reading too much into it but this video has always filled me with such indescribable longing. Like the climax of a sports movie where everyone else has turned away from our hero facing impossibly long odds except for the one die hard with his fists clenched whispering, “come on you son of a bitch, you can do it.” But “it” in this case is outrunning the toxic nightmare of urban sprawl. I want him to run so fast he breaks free from the things we’ve done to this world. I want him to clear the city limits and find the forests that don’t really exist anymore. To gambol and forage and rest in primeval bliss. I want him to make it.
DID system - hence not having any name on our profile. We all use this blog, that's about all there is. Feel free to use he/him or they/them pronouns for us.
Been in fandom for well over a decade and too tired to keep up with current trends or discourse. We know what we're about.
Grew up in the midwest, now living in the pacific northwest.
Don't feel up to putting a laundry list of our mental illnesses, physical disabilities, trauma, life experiences, or anything else here. Take it on good faith that we don't post about things we don't have experience with.
Really though we're friendly people so feel free to send us a message. Mostly we spend our time not at work going hogwild over video games and reading fanfiction.
